A year ago, my life seemed full. A year ago, I knew God was calling me to something more, something bigger, to step out on faith and believe. There was this emptiness that needed to be filled, this promise He wanted for me but I was too afraid to follow. I was in the comfortable. I built a life around the comfortable. A decent job, ministries, church, even enough friends to keep me busy. From the outside, for a single girl in her 20s, that was enough...but I knew God's call for me, I was just nervous to leave the comfortable.
A year ago, I participated in PLACE bible study to find God's place for me. Boy did God speake to me in those 5 weeks. He spent that time shaking me awake. I spent 6 years waiting on the next steps... I knew what I was called to do since I left CofC, I was just waiting for the next steps. He was giving them to me. Through this bible study and SO MUCH PRAYER, I took that next step. A year ago, I listened to God and my life changed... I followed Him and I transformed into a person that loves Him more, loves people more, each day He shows me something through His eyes and not the lenses of the world or others. I have learned not to let rules others set for me dictate my life, but let His love and guidance lead the way. He is not steering me wrong.
A year ago, I took the plunge. I began school full time and work full time. The transition was difficult and I had to figure a lot out. I had to learn balance. and not to procastenate. Also to spend a lot of time by myself to study, which was one of the biggest challenges of all. The biggest challenge though was stepping back from ministry, I had to step back from serving completely because i didnt have time to work, to study and go to class, take care of my self, and serve so I knew what I had to sacrifice temporarily so I can serve fully in the future but it has been the hardest thing for me to ever do and I still miss it. I have also learned what true friends are this year. I thought I had a good perception on trust and people but this year has been challenging because I have seen some dear friends walk away and it is not as much as one side is wrong or right as it is a loss because of the friendships I cherished. I thought they were liftetime friends but I have changed in the last year and sometimes we can't explain how or why things, we just have to trust God....Sometimes I dont want to accept that, but I do because I do trust Him.
A year ago, within two or three weeks, I interviewed, applied and began a masters program at a college 30 min away. For Marriage and Family Counseling. With a Play Therapy Certicate (this has been added on just recently, amazing story). With this, I am going to go work with youth and young adults who have been abused or abandoned, primarily in the foster care/childrens home system. Also work with families with individuals with disabilities (another God story). These are just ideas, plans. I truly believe God will shape and form them how HE pleases, but don't you see, something amazing will be done? God's light will shine. This was His plan when I was at CofC, I just had to wait, to grow up, to mature, to learn life lessons. I love the program, I love my friends. We are all so different, from different backgrounds and different perspectives. I love them all. I thank God for them. God brought me here, I am suppose to be here right now in this time in my life. I am excited for what He will show me during this program. I have know officially completed my first year of graduate school :)
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